UPDATES

I read back through the "Nostalgic" post I posted a little while back and I laughed at myself. My first thought was, "Why the garbage did I even post this?" I realized, that even though it may have been completely ridiculous and stupid, I was still feeling something that I had to express or get off my chest in some way. And since my outlet is writing, I did just that. I have no idea why I would allow myself to be effected by such a thing or situation but it had a gigantic hold on me for quite awhile. Anyway, obviously I was preaching about a guy in my life that was completely unavailable. I was worried what people would think if they did take the time to read that post, that I was being defined as a worthless high school girl infatuated with someone and a situation. That is what it felt like actually. With that whole situation, I hadn't felt so strongly about something in such a long time that I was confused as to what I was feeling. I was feeling rejection. No one likes to feel rejected and uncertain about themselves and what they have to offer, but that is what I have finally realized it was. Though I care a great amount about this person, I have come to peace with the fact that if it does not work out in my favor, well, that is just another hill i've got to climb. BUT, recent events have shown there may be some type of promising information that I can share with the situation. I suppose the opportunity has surfaced that we are moving forward. Who knows what will happen and all I can do is be hopeful and kind and allow for him to open his mind as to what exactly I have to offer this person because I know that I have a lot of heart to give and some great traits as a person. ANYWAY, enough about all that crap haha. I started back at Box Elder Credit Union this week. EXACTLY two years as the day that I left. Weird right? The only thing I can figure is that it is exactly where I'm supposed to be at this point in time. Olivia and I have been doing great as well. Day trips to the zoo, various parks, playing with friends and making new memories with many people. Point is, I am finally beginning to feel excited for my future and most of all hopeful. 

Olivia and I 2013

My mom's 50th birthday dinner

 On our way to Florida!

 At the Dino Park

Blaire's babyshower