Christmas 2010

I can't believe Christmas has already come and gone. This year has flown by, it seems just like yesterday that Ian and I were opening presents in our living room at 4:30 in the morning last Christmas and after that, going to prepare and deliver meals to those who didn't have a family to celebrate with. Even though we were completely exhausted, we decided that is something we would like to start doing every Christmas. Christmas is not just about receiving gifts, it is about giving to those who have less. As much as I wished I was able to do the same this year, I wasn't able to make it, but I am hoping next year Olivia and I can. Olivia received lots of fun toys, books, and clothes but didn't really realize what was going on. This Christmas was difficult without Ian here with us, but we all know he was celebrating with us in spirit. He made sure I knew that and made sure Olivia knew it as well. He is my sunshine, my lighthouse in the storm and my angel, and always will be. I love you babe :] Ps, here are a few pics from Christmas 2010.

Blaire and I

Ian's Stone.. Til we meet again my love :]

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Latest...

I guess I am not very good at updating my blog like most people. Maybe I will make a better effort in updating every so often. There have been some pretty significant events happen the past couple of months. Olivia's first thanksgiving was not the typical, traditional turkey day, we spent it at the Grand America Hotel. They have a FANTASTIC buffet. Though many were missing from our Thanksgiving celebration this year, we tried to enjoy it. On December 5th, Olivia was blessed. My dad flew from Japan to step in for Ian, to bless our baby girl. The blessing was amazing and there wasn't a dry eye in the room. Even though Ian wasn't physically there with us, I know he was there, in the circle blessing our daughter. The feeling was so strong. As hard as the days are, life keeps going. I have began to find peace once again. I miss him everyday, but he was my angel while he was here physically and he is my angel still. I love you boy, we miss you <3

I half wink at you :]

All smiles

My favorite thing to do

Olivia and I

My hat my sis got me

She LOVES her bath

We support the BEES haha

Olivia in her blessing dress

Liv in her big girl bed

The greatest gift...we love our snuggies grandma! hahaha

Santa came early at my house,

Merry Christmas <3

Listen to brittlyn_gs playlist

Big Girl Bed

I have finally gotten a crib mattress for Olivia's crib. She was two months old yesterday, so I decided it was time for her to sleep in her own room and bed. She LOVED it. She slept the best she has ever slept before, not to mention mommy was able to finally get some shut eye. When she sleeps, she makes all kinds of noises and the light sleeper that I am, I wake up to every peep. It was starting to get really hard for me to sleep, so I would sleep with a pillow over my head, but decided I couldn't sleep that way forever haha. So I took myself down to Wally World, and after eatin some subway and pretending to be lady gaga, Brit and I shopped for a mattress. We set it up, and it turned out so cute, the pictures just don't do it justice. My mom made the cute bedding, and it looks so adorable. Here are a couple of pics

Olivia and her boyfran Kohan, eating at Subway

We are basically great. :]

Olivia

I can't believe how much Olivia has grown. To me she seems giant, though she is only close to 8 1/2 pounds. Tons of people comment on her size and how teeny she is, but from what she was....she is ginormous! I'm sad to say, i think that little peanut has Colic. She is fussy quite a bit unless she is being held and rocked or patted. She doesn't stay asleep during the day, i call it cat naps. She may sleep on and off for about 20-30 increments. It is kind of rough because that doesn't allow me to get anything done that I need to get done.

She LOVES to go for a ride in the car. She automatically is quiet and falls asleep and generally stays asleep the entire time we are out and about, but the minute we get home and i set her down, bing! her eyes pop open. I know it'll get better once her gas issues settle down. I took her to the doctor last week and he told me it was acid reflux. He gave me some meds to give her, but now i'm not so sure that is the problem because I haven't noticed a difference. Anyway, she was 8'3 and 19 7/8 long when I took her. That is close to a 3 pound weight gain in only 5 weeks. To sum that up, she LOVES to eat. She is my little pork chop for sure.

Last night she slept for a 6 hour stretch, which was amazing!! I forgot how good sleep was haha. Here are a few pictures to enjoy :]

Today...

As most of you know, I lost my husband Ian 4 months ago on June 3rd, 2010. I would have never imagined this would be where I would be at this point in my young life. Our time together here in this life was magical. We always had a wonderful time together with whatever we were doing. We had/have a great connection with each other that is indescribable. There are no words to explain the love we have for each other, it's only a feeling. This road is a very tough one, and I am thankful to have my beliefs for assurance. I am thankful for my family and friends who have created such a wonderful support system for me. Though on the outside I pry myself to be strong, for my daughter, it is very tough to keep that face. All I can hope for anyone that is blessed with all they have is cherish each and every moment, every tiny laugh, smile, kiss and hug because you do not ever know what the big guy upstairs has in store for us. I didn't know how to continue my family blog for the longest time but, i realized i still have my family. Daddy is just in heaven now. And, a blog is a great place to just write what I feel, and if people want to read it then, cool. I have always been able to express my feelings much better in writing than verbally so this will be a great way to do so.

I had our beautiful baby girl on September 5, 2010. Now, this baby was ready to come, 3 whole weeks early. She was just a teeny tiny peanut weighing 5 pounds 6 ounces and 18 inches long. I love her so much and am so very thankful to have her in my life. She helps me through the really tough days. I love being a mommy, but it is def a challenge. Here are some pics of my sweet baby girl. I love you Liv.

Ian, you were always my angel when you were physically here with me, and you are now. I know you are with me each day and help me along. I know you love me and Liv so very much, save my spot in line for me my love. I love you and miss you every minute of every single day. :]

We love you daddy

My girls :]

Little Miss Big Eyes