It's Our Beautiful Chaos...: Another Year Behind Us...

Let's face it, I really am horrible at updating a blog regularly. I don't even know if anyone even reads this but I've decided I don't write for anyone else but for myself. It is certainly a release that I've always turned to throughout my life. I feel as if writing is my way I self-expression and to blow off steam. I have tons of journals i've collected over the years but they just take up space, so blogging is a much easier way to document memories and thoughts. Anyway, it's been an entire year in a half since I last wrote anything on here but I really want to keep this updated as best as I can.

Let's see......in the passed year in a half, we've moved, had ups and downs in some relationships, gone on a couple different amazing vacations, created memories and experiences with many new and amazing people, been at some lowest lows and some of the highest highs. At times, I allow this life to consume me entirely and become quite the recluse. I've realized however, that is no way to live. The only person it affects is myself. It's extremely difficult to always be positive, just as anyone else would agree with me on that, but look around at all the incredible blessings and beauty that still remains here. Not right now with the 5 inch ice sheets all over the ground outside, but most days it's pretty beautiful. Olivia certainly keeps me on my toes. She turned 2 in September of last year, however, we encountered the "terrible two's" shortly after her first birthday. She has major attitude and that fiery red hair has transferred to her brain I think. Though she gives me a run for my money, I love that little sleeping baby girl in the other room more than life itself. The dark is brightened by her luminous light daily and I am beyond thankful to have her and to teach me everyday more about myself. There is so much that she does each and everyday that reminds me of her daddy, in Heaven. We know that he watches over us and lives on in our hearts every moment of every day. Different story for a different day.

I am going to keep up with this, so there isn't such a broad post next time. Here are some pictures from the last year, Enjoy!

Olivia and I had some photos taken after she turned 2-Here are a few!

These next couple are from a bigger family shoot we had when my sister and her family were visiting this summer!

I was in the back room for two seconds and when I came out this is what I found. haha!

Summer in Brigham City- 2012

We went to San Diego last year and we absolutely LOVED it. It was Olivia's first experience at the beach and with the ocean. It was incredible!

More summer photos in Utah!

Halloween 2012. I was the Queen Bee and she was my baby bee

This was our trip to Virginia for Thanksgiving. We had a total blast re-acquainting with my long lost Gilland family. I was TERRIFIED of how the plane ride was going to go, because the ride to San Diego was really not fun. I was pleasantly surprised with how well she did. As a matter of fact, she loved the plane. Two days after the photo with my Grandpa Jerry was taken, and after we returned home to Utah, he passed away. I am incredibly blessed that I was allowed the luxury of getting to spend his last Thanksgiving here with him.