Something you have to forgive yourself for
So...This one is hard only because no one knows this. Something I need to forgive myself for is leaving Ian on the Sunday before he passed to go back to work. I blame myself, not for his actual death but for not being there to at least tell him I loved him and for him to be close to me, and to help him not be scared. I do know it is a blessing that I wasn't there with him, because I would probably be so much more screwed up than I am already. This is something I will probably never be able to forgive myself for...There are so many things that I wish for that day and this is one.
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